It’s been 21 years since Kurt Cobain’s suicide, but his widow Courtney Love still feels the loss acutely. The Hole rocker broke down in tears during a Q&A for Cobain’s HBO documentary Montage of Heck during the Tribeca Film Festival on Sunday, April 19.
Montage of Heck brought back fond memories for the Empire guest star. The Brett Morgen-directed film chronicles Love and Cobain’s sweet and tumultuous romance and Cobain’s downfall with his band Nirvana.
“Mostly I got really sad when I watched it before. But, you know, guilt, and what I could have done,” Love said, via Page Six. “I got to spend a little more time with Kurt and Frances,” she added of daughter Frances Bean, 22.
“Me and Kurt only had this one tape…and so we recorded over and over,” she continued. “Everyone makes one sex tape in their life, so we did.”
Love, 50, also spoke frankly about their special, and at times, volatile bond. “It’s that punch-drunk love thing where you met your soul mate and you’re 25 and you’re just [bleeping] and talking and fighting and [bleeping]. So there’s other kinds of love and more mature kinds of love…with him, it was like a soul matey thing.” Earlier this month, Love told V magazine that their romance “almost rendered other intimacies meaningless.”